When things are not good.

When I love someone, truly love him, I lay my heart open to him. I give him a part of myself that I give to no one else, and I let him inside a part of me that only he can hurt-I literally hand him the razor with a map of where to cut deepest and most painfully on my heart and soul. And when he do strike, it’s crippling-like having my heart carved out. When I cry so hard that it hurts my throat, it is out of frustration or knowing that no matter what I can do or attempt to do can't change the situation. When I feel like I need to cry, when I want to just get it out, relieve some of the pressure from the inside - that is true pain. Because no matter how hard I try or how bad I want to, I can't. That pain just stays in place. Then, if I am lucky, one small tear may escape from those eyes that water constantly. That one tear, that tiny, salty, droplet of moisture is a means of escape. Although it's just a small tear, it is the heaviest thing in the world. And it doesn't do a damn thing to fix anything.

This day...

Hello 2012

Sharing some photos from our Laiya trip last April 2011

Kabayan Hotel

The Beach

Us together, 2 years and counting

Lots of love! :)

Chuck

Hello guys, how's everyone doing? I've given a lot of task and work in our office, I wanted to take it positively. I know it means more working ours and less sleep, On my previous post, I told you that I'll be sharing a photo of my new car. So here you go, everybody I want you to meet chuck...

Me and chuck

So there you have it, he's a 2005 Toyota Vios. Bought him from a friend who does buy and sell. I was able to install alarm system for him and Boyfriend also got him some visors. Next in line are new tints and preventive maintenance to keep him healthy. :)  Owning a car wasn't easy, you have to be ready for all the expenses that may come along the way. But you know what achieving something that you've been dreaming of for years is priceless. :)

So that's all for now..

With love,

 

 

One dream down more to go...

I know it's been a while since I last posted something here. But guess what guys? I have a very exciting story to share. I was able to bought my first car! yes! from my hard earned money. The feeling is unexplainable, that finally after long months of dreaming to have one I finally get it! just sharing guys, I will be posting picture of chuck in the coming months. I named him chuck because I am so hooked in the US series chuck! i really can't get over it till now. That's all for now.

Till next time!

Lovelots,

A strange feeling…

Photo taken from http://www.pinkhues.com/

There are times I think of myself as weird, lol! But no I’m just unique. I don’t know why sometimes I just feel so incomplete, I can say I am so blessed and so lucky enough to get almost everything I want and I’m really thankful for all of that. (See how weird?) meron lang talagang kulang siguro. Honestly I feel so sad whenever I see my friends/love ones or someone so special to me being so happy with someone else or with their other friends/relatives.  Maybe because I can feel that they have a lot of people around them when I only have them from the start. Problem me, obviously… L  I once promised myself not to mind the things that depresses me, I just can’t help it! Arrrggh! I know this isn’t normal at ako lang talaga ang may deperensya tsk! They say you can’t buy happiness kung meron nga sanang nabibili e talagang pagiipunan ko yon para di ako maubusan. J Enough! This blog is intended for my happy memories but today inatake na naman ako ng topak ko. Yeah! There are times na bigla na lang akong nagkakaganito. Quarter life crisis maybe? Oh well in times like this I only think of three things… Enjoy, Splurge and try something new! Any suggestions??

with love